A conversation that somehow still stuck in my head.
This was how it went....

Anonymous: Hey how are you doing today?
Me: I'm good, as always u know. Waking up in the morning, going to work, come home and follow the same routine every single day of my life... This is my life now I guess. No life should I said(laugh).

Anonymous: You've been doin that even on ur off days. Don't you have other things to do outside? Like catchin up with ur frens and have a chat and stuff like tt.
Me: Hmmm everyone seems to ask me the same question, as far as I know, when Im not at work, I'll probably be studying. And even when I study, Ill probably study at work. So my work place has become my home, and my home has become a hotel.

Anonymous: So thats ur life right now? Work and study- That's it?
Me: Yeah, very much like it. There are some people already tellin me that life is more than just work and study. And I know some believe that I'm already throwin my life away at such a young age. They said I'm not socialising enough outside. And maybe they are right, even I have to agree with that. So I'll see how it goes.

Anonymous: When are you gonna do that? Knowin that you do not even take ur off days.
Me: I don't know..

Anonymous: You know in this world, we do need someone, someone whom you really love and care for, like a spouse. They are the one who will pull u out from the danger zone and get u back to reality and make you realise sometimes that life isnt much about living alone. When you live alone, there is no one who is gonna look out for you when you are on a verge of headin to the wrong direction. Your subconscious will take over and when you realise that you have fallen into that direction, it will be hard to get back cuz u've been so used to that lifestyle....
Me: Of course I agree with ur perspective. There is nothing better than to have love and feel them in ur heart. Its good to be close to someone but in the end Ill always ended up with a mixture of both(good and bad). I've had it before, that's why Im abit reluctant to get close to anyone now. But dun get the wrong idea, I don't take it negatively. In fact I learnt from there. That's where experience comes in. Maybe now you understand why I don't spend time outside. Even I can spot tt myself. I know people are tryin to make me realise that something is missing in my life, but this will take time.

It was a long conversation but this section was always in my head since then. Conversation could have gone on, but we talked about smth else. Perhaps I need a time to reflect for awhile. Now I've just done tt.

There's no doubt that we do need someone in our life. Relationship, mutuality combination of acceptance, trust, supportive, understandin, caring etc are great way of having a happy healthy life. When we accept the journey with that someone, we will be flooded with a strong, supportive energy that carries us through all the dark places. For this energy we have an approriate word- Its love. For that, ur purpose of life will more meaningful among the rest who do not share that joy.