This is rather unusual for me to talk about my personal life but I feel that I have to do it. Its been a very difficult week for me. This kind of issues are not in my hands. I cant do much about it, Its already depressing enough that I'm stuck here in this situation and people are telling me about my life and how it will affect me in the future with others. True enough it will.. It has already affected me alot now. Honestly when I look at the people around me these days- Be it in the gym, train, everywhere... I felt something was missing in me. Given the long hours, I know I dont have much time to do anything outside. I cant help it but just to feel happy for others. I cant change things around me, its not within my control, its not within my wish and definitely its not what I want, I paid the price for this. I dun blame others about it. I take full responsibility of my action. There are few reasons why I chose this and not that. But sometimes those choices that I make are the wrong ones. And to see how things are going - work, social life, everything... I just feel that there isnt much to look forward to. There will be a time when I will have to say goodbye(forever)... And its only matter of time. I have a choice to make but Im not quite sure what the outcome will be. Will I be happier or will it be a mistake...This is my fate, only God knows. I guess sometimes its a good thing to be alone and reflect on my life and see what should be done... Its better that way.