The truth was told yesterday. For a very long time I tried not to share my past experience with anyone- It wasnt worth talkin about it, cuz whenever it happen- It will just pull me down. Like a child who is being pull down by a quicksand. It was one which I really want it to go away for a lifetime. I don't want any of it... None of it at all. I just want it to go away. Every night I wish those bad memories will just disappear but I know its inevitable. This is my weakness I suppose- I can't seem to face the agony that I had in my past. I know there isnt much I can do about it now. I dont think psychotherapy will help either cuz I do not want to bring it to the surface. It lies in the unconscious, sometimes unfortunately it went to the preconscious. But this is how its gonna be, It has already left a big scar in me. I can't change it neither could I erase it. Life goes on as I always said and I'll carry on my life as a normal cheerful, jovial, optimistic person that I've been known for.