I don't know how to start this but Im feel so disappointed nw. Disappointed by my parents, families and even my good friends... While I was out today to town earlier, I took a short moment to reflect back just what happened earlier in the day, yesterday, few days ago, last wk, past wks and last mth. About those talk I had with them in the past and honestly I was very disappointed by it. Indeed those words that they said maybe encouraging, caring for a friend, beneficial for me n also having faith in me for my future but each time, each moment when they start to talk abt it, it will only deteriorated my day and my life. Up to this day, I guess they still don't understand me at all, not even a single soul out there. That really hurts. What's wrong followin my heart and do what I really want? Is it so wrong? Is it so damn wrong? Everyone has their own dream to be what they want to be when they grow up, and so am I. I don't need anybody to tell me to become this become that in the future. Its just not gonna happen u knw. ..Just not gonna happen. And what Im taking up nw, some of them have doubts... Im not gonna mention who but I trully feel sad abt it. It psychologically affect me alot. And coming from a person who is always smiling, jovial n happy abt things in life, I think all of u have done a great job by puttin me into this shitty situation. I guess everyone is having the same thinking;- They want the best for me and I understand that but I just want to do what I really want. Truth is Im willin to take the risk n follow my dreams. All I want now is move on with it. Im sick of hearin the same old topic over n over again and Im tired of telling everyone the same answer. And Im totally sick n tired of this whole thing. I dunno how to explain this anymore. I would be very appreciated if this ends now. But please don't get the wrong idea. I'm not angry at anyone but just disappointed... That's all.