I had a conversation with a very good friend of mine whom I've known for at least a good 8 yrs now. He mentioned to me that as part of growing up you will only realise that only true friends will still stay with you. And those that had come touched your heart and left should let it remain in the past as it is.

It feel it very heavy in my heart when I heard it, but sometimes the truth matters and the truth also hurts. But, I find it a shame if I were to give up on things I feel that there is something to fight for as long as there is a hope and time given. Maybe it could even be in denial that we go all out fighting for all we can despite knowing that the battle is all but lost.

So I asked myself, if it was worth all the effort, all the pain then and now, that haunts me sometimes. was it really worth it? Despite all the things I've tried. Maybe, maybe not. I know sometimes I can be an instrument of my own destruction. But I also know I've tried my best in many possible ways to regain everything back.

So then again, there comes a point in your life no matter how much you have tried, you will know who matters, who never did, who won't anymore.. and who always will to you. So, don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.